It has been some months since I blogged. Why? I feel in a place of transition... of so many changes, that I am finding it difficult to formulate my thinking clearly. Having been to the UK and had new and enlarged concepts opened to me - I feel I must 'work these into' my life. And that is not proving as simple as I had thought. This has brought some frustration and confusion. I feel like I need time out to sift through it all. But that has not transpired.
Also we are in a very big transition with our church... a little flock... but now with a big building that was truly a gift from God - a miracle... and a very big vision that needs lots of exploring around how it will unfold. Also there is a kind of re-laying of foundations for us as a body of people. There seems to be layers of things that need clarifying.
Plus some people have become unhappy and left, which has caused me grief...they have been good friends and it has been hard to see them misunderstand and get offended and finally decide to leave. It seems they cannot see the hand of God in what is unfolding... or their personal sense of loss and offence has distorted their view.
Change does that. We can get our view very distorted. We can view the future through the lens of our former season - and not be able to grow into a new view of things. We can also feel very unsettled, as the former 'goal posts' have shifted and we don't know what we are aiming at any more. I find with our church, that there is a new group who have one set of aims, the old group with another set... and some inbetween who seem to have their own personal aims which don't fit either of the other two!!
Conclusion: we all need 'the wisdom that comes from above' (James 3:17-18) 'that is pure, peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness.' And to find that we need time alone with the Lord... and also together as leaders with the Lord. Seeking his face, hearing his voice. He will want to give us a new view of himself in all this.
